SeNiOr. DiRtY bLoNdE hAiR. bLuE eYeS. tAn SkIn. PlAyS vOlLeYbAlL. sHoPs. WoRkS oUt. TeXtS. hAnGs WiTh ThE gIrLs.
r.e.t.r.e.a.t. 2.0.1.2!!!
So wow my retreat for Senior year basically was them saying…you’re leaving. We wrote everyones name who we were going to miss and I just realized holy crap it’s everyone in this room. I have gotten used to so many people quirks and it amuses me. I wouldn’t have my senior year class any other way. I love them all SOOOO much.
It is scary to think that there are people in that class that I have gone to school with for 13 YEARS. 13 straight years of drama and happiness and just growing up. I remember some of the people each other used to date and how a girl giving a guy a hug was her being a slut. Wow times have most definately changed. I will miss everyone whether or not I want to accept it.
Ok so my darling boyfriend who knew that I was on retreat for 2 straight days knew I wouldn’t be able to talk since there is no service in the woods. But seriously right when I got home he wanted to know everything. The ins and outs of the retreat. He even sorta got jealous hearing about how I thought some guy was so sweet and all. He would never admit that such a feeling would come from him but he was jealous. I just know…it’s one of those scary things I can tell about him without him directly telling me.
So I wanted to know if he missed me at all without straight-up asking him and he did it. Saturday night…well last night he emailed a song that he couldn’t sing the last time we hung out since his voice was messed up. And he sent me a link and let me be the judge of how good or bad it was which I always am the judge he just never says it. At the bottom of the email he says enjoy Anna Lee :) which is the nickname he gave me even though it’s actually longer than my real name…silly boy. His is Bren Bren and it cracks me up since it reminds me of like little kid name. But anyways it was just cute and made me smile because he calls me Anna Lee whenever he is actually trying to be cute so it’s kinda a surprise. I listened to the song which is another thing I love doing since I could listen to him sing all the time. It just makes me so happy. But yea…boyfriends aren’t so bad sometimes :)
<3 Anna Lee
“and love such a silly game we play…”
wow haven’t been on this in a while…
well here it goes…
so uh i am in love. totally completely head over heels. it should almost be banned. i am in like hollywood love with him. the problem…oh yes there is always a problem. i don’t know if he is in love with me. like i feel like he could be just because of how completely obsessed with are with each other whenever we do get to hang out but then again that’s me trying to read off of boy’s thoughts…which i nearly always mess up. but then again that’s not really where the problem is. i mean if he does one day great…but if not i mean i guess i don’t know…ha i guess you’re supposed to figure that out when that happens not before.
anyways i am happy like i get so wrapped around him and what he is up to and us whenever we do hang out or talk but i am getting worried. like everything is going so great right now that it almost seems too good to be true. like something is going to happen and throw it all out of wack again. i don’t know.
high school…well we are already half way until the 2nd quarter is over so we have about 1 more semester. that’s it. so he is for sure going to UAH to play soccer which i am so happy he gets to play like i know that that’s what he has always wanted to be able to do. so that’s great. but…(haha you had to know that was coming) i am so NOT going to UAH. my options are UNA (45 minutes to an hour away), UAB (1 hour 30 minutes away), and West Alabama (3 hours and 30 minutes away). so no where in there was UAH. and on top of that it’s not like i can just drive down the road and BAM he is there.
i guess i am like thinking too much about the future or something but honest i am not doing it on purpose. i just don’t know what my next move is supposed to be after we graduate. we will be in 2 different worlds. i mean i guess i look at the couples from school and they are RIDICULOUS. seriously not even kidding. like they’re applying to the same school as their boyfriend and trying to make it permanent that they can stay together all through college. one of my friends has an off and on kinda boyfriend and he is going into the military and she is going to Northwestern in Chicago and after 2 years he can get stationed in Chicago and she is like i don’t know if i want to be an army wife. i mean seriously? we haven’t even graduated yet!
i guess when he text me saying “i enjoy talking to you and it makes me happy to make you happy. so cheers and look forward to the long haul :)” i guess me being a girl i thought too much. but i can’t imagine him not in my life. yea yea i know i could always be friends with him. but seriously if i see him 2 years down the road and we have broken up and all i am probably going to fall for him again if i even speak to him.
and i hate being this vulnerable. literally any other guy i would be able to stand on my 2 feet. i mean i have done it countless times. god i just feel like i am falling and falling and one of these days i am actually going to land on my big ass because i didn’t land on my two feet. i don’t know.
Sarah Jessica Parker and Matthew Broderick Photographed for the August Issue of Vogue by Mario Testino
Ok I aM a DoRk…IdK wHy I lIkE tHiS sO mUcH oThEr ThAn I jUsT dO
Just say what you mean and mean what you say. Don’t expect someone to read your mind, and don’t play games with heads or hearts. Don’t tell half truths and expect trust when the full truth comes out. Half truths are no better than lies. Don’t be cold to someone you care about, indifference hurts more than angry words.
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IsNt ThIs So TrUe?!?!
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SeNiOr YeAr
So i know i am a bit of a failure right now…i mean my last post was only god knows how long ago…but today i feel the need to post something so here we go…
Summer before senior year is…exhausting. I have the senior portraits on the 18th at 9am and volleyball everyday for 2 hours and college touring…sorry Bama fans but the University of Alabamas tour SUCKED! You would do better doing the itour online on their website because they dont even show you a dorm room or a classroom. Anyways i have 2 summer reads and sad to say but i am still on the first on with 7 chapters to go then i have another one…Invisible Man. Whippy.
College…a few things need to be said:
1. its not easy to find the ONE
2. dont go into a college tour thinking this will be it BEFORE the tour begins
3. college is by no means cheap-it make private school look cheap
4. the dorms arent going to be perfect
5. go somewhere you can see yourself-dont go somewhere your FRIENDS see themselves
6. check out scholarships that you could get…there are plenty you just have to hunt it all down
7. reseach and reseach colleges-figure out which ones you like based on the info they give you
8. eliminate-do you want a big college or a small one? do you want public or private-does it matter to you? money-how much does it cost?
9. how far away from home do you want to be? realize that even if you dont think so now you will be homesick. so with that being said how long will a drive home and back to school be?
10. check out the deadlines…see how much time you actually have to sort this all out in your head…collegeboard is a HUGE help.
that is anna’s college advise :) take it or leave it but thats what i am dealing with right now…i kinda wish i started early…but were not perfect. something to learn.
<anna
KELLY CALL ME
so you didnt call me today like you told me you would…you need to get on that…
<3 anna
NiCk CaN bE dEeP
So there is this boy…sophmore (and i am a junior) that likes me. Well anyways we got on the topic of love one day. I told him I don’t think I can love anyone again. I told him about the issue I had when me and my past boyfriend, Brent dated. We said i love you to each other and genuinely meant it. I still to this day can only say his name when I say a guy i have loved. But seriously after we said the 3 words everything went downhill. Like it was so bad that i haven’t said it to any guy since then. So anyways Nick was like no baby you can love someone. I said not more than loving them as a person. Like thats basically what i love you means to me when i say it. Nick said, “3 words don’t change anything, the people do.” I just flat out was like wow you totally shocked me there. i was definately not expecting that from him but honestly it was an eye-opener. :) some guys will still surprise you.
and no kelly i still dont know if i like him or not
HOTTIE IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD!
I FOUND HIM! HE WAS SKATEBOARDING AND WE CAUGHT EYE WHILE I DROVE BY! DAMN HE IS SO CUTE! OH AND THERE IS BRIAN KNOWLES FROM CHURCH HE KEEPS LOOKING AT ME SO YEA….HE IS CUTE TOO….BUT I CAN BET HE IS ALREADY TAKEN :(
LiFe UpDaTe!!!
sorry for being gone so long. life is blah. here is the latest and greatest….
1. volleyball is great off court. on court there is so much tension and moe isnt there the whole way and its ridiculous because its like shes trying to manage being ad and a volleyball coach and its NOT working. shes mad and stressed all the time.
2. me and patrick are officially over. we deleted each others number in our phones. its like the 3rd time i did that so its fine. oh and i saw his mother at mass.
3. i discovered that i suck at having fun. i wish i was kidding. like i had like no homework and im so not used to being available to do things so i didnt know what to do. its pathedic and sad.
4. katie is visiting next weekend! haha gotta clean the room
5. painted nails pink and toenails a orangey color.
6. im tired 24-7
7. fml
8. my dad keeps making drive the ghetto car….haha good times kells
9.ok im done complaining. :)
thats all ill try to update. oh and kells volleyball game at holy spirit 4 30 and 5 30…wanna go?
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